Friday, May 30, 2008

Finding humanity within yourself

What is it that makes you. . . "YOU"?

Are you an optimist or a pessimist? Are you a giver or a taker? (How many takers do you think would answer that honestly) What makes you tick? What have you spent your life filling your heart and mind with?

I like to think that most people are good and that there is a lot of love in this world.

Performers are a strange breed . . . . magicians especially. My goals have always been simple to make people happy with my magic and make the world a better place one smile at a time.

How often do we get in the way of our own desires. When my numbers are down due to circumstances beyond my control, I internalize that and make the money more important than the directive to make people happy. Lots of things determine the outcome of any performance.

Getting ready to go out there and do my best. Been trying to lighten up and find improvisational situations to exploit. Having fun and connecting with the audience is primary, everything else will fall into place. There is a natural force in the universe. . . . called. . . . chaos . . . . deal with it, learn to love it and enjoy the ride. It's never exactly the same twice.

Watched "Fame" this afternoon with Polly. We both went to the same performing arts high school 25 years ago. Brought back a lot of memories.

Classic Ammar

Quote du Jour

"I'm living so far beyond my income that we may almost be said to be living apart"

- E E Cummings

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Requiem For A Dream

, originally uploaded by Dai Vernon.

Me and my gal

, originally uploaded by Dai Vernon.

To love and be loved. Isn't that what it's all about. Filling your life with love and joy. Being happy with who you are and who your with. I'm a lucky guy.

Magic Geek

I've been doing magic since I was a child. It's a phase most boys grow out of by the time they're 9 or 10. Certainly by adolescence the number of teenage tricksters dwindles. I admit it and always have. . . I'm a magic geek. Sometimes alone in a room full of people. Back in the day it was different. I more closely associated who I was, with what I did. I was an insufferable magician never leaving the house without cards and coins. Magic was how I communicated with people to make them like me. Sound familiar? It's funny, I kinda want to say that I don't go out without any tricks; really I don't. . . . but, being a street performer my act lives in my car trunk and any portion of it can be brought out at a moments notice.

Just rambling, rock'en the volcano. Feeling good and thinking about life. Spent a few hours with Sylvester the Jester in Pasadena earlier in the week. Always a pleasure to hang with my old pal Danny. It's so interesting to see where all our various choices have taken us. 20 years ago we lived together and followed our dreams in Cerritos and then in Westminster. Here it is two decades later and were both still following our hearts and our life's work. The older I get, the better listener I become. Danny never fails to impress me with his gifts and curses that make him such a compelling artist. We talked about his act and my lack of one. We discussed our lives, our work, our women. It's crazy, we live in the same city, but never see each other. That's the LA way. He lives in Bellflower I live in N. Hollywood. They call that geographically undesirable, here in these parts. I'm gonna make spending more time with him a priority. Great guy and one of the most creative people I know.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Drawing-A-Day: May 28th, originally uploaded by redmeg8.

Sunday, May 25, 2008


Almost time to go out there and try and do it again. To say that work has been problematic over the last few months would be an understatement. With the reality of gas prices over $4 a gallon, a hot, tired and broke public, wide spread apathy and political polarization you would think people might be a little more enthusiastic about a little levity.

What the hell, I go out there and do what I can to make the world a better place one smile at a time. That's a problem. I've never know it to be such a challenge to get people to lighten up and little and have some fun. They stand there, watch, pay or don't pay, but it's pulling teeth to get a large part of the audience to show even trace amounts of delight.

I feel great today. Was a little wonky the last few days. Thought I was coming down with something. Feeling better and ready to make it happen tonight. So, it will either happen or not and I'm OK with that. I'll do the best I can to fill my heart with love and share as much as I can.

Busker du Jour

Old-Time Magician, originally uploaded by pconrad72.