The condition of being lost in thought • Absentminded dreaming while awake • An abstracted state of absorption
Tuesday, November 19, 2019
Feeling Low
Spent the morning trying to help my friend. Trying to figure out how his PayPal account disappeared. Best we can guess, is that when he authorized someone to remotely access his computer for the purpose of helping him, that he got hacked. His PayPal account was cleaned out and the account closed. I spent a couple of hours on the phone with PayPal and merging the call with my friend. PayPal says they have no history of his account that he used for 20 years. What a crock of shit. I'm beside myself. PayPal said that when an account is closed all history of that account is deleted.
It's a cruel world. Dog eat dog. It's fucked up. PayPal can't do a damn thing about it? Seriously!?
Trying to manage my anger and disappointment. Need to change my mood, going to work as a Bartending Magician in the Hat & Hare Pub at The Magic Castle this evening and need to change gears.
I'm trying to except that I have to watch my friend loose his mind and die. How do I make any sense out of any of it. He talks about his frustration and anger, feelings of uselessness and desire to be dead. This is heavy fucking shit. I love him so deeply and our friendship goes back to teenage years. I can only help him as much as I can. This bothers me greatly. Today I thought when I was authorized to discuss his account on his behalf (no easy task) with PayPal that we were making progress. Then to have that door shut in our face is troubling. How much worse can this guys life get? I guess we're going to fine out.
It's a cruel world. Dog eat dog. It's fucked up. PayPal can't do a damn thing about it? Seriously!?
Trying to manage my anger and disappointment. Need to change my mood, going to work as a Bartending Magician in the Hat & Hare Pub at The Magic Castle this evening and need to change gears.
I'm trying to except that I have to watch my friend loose his mind and die. How do I make any sense out of any of it. He talks about his frustration and anger, feelings of uselessness and desire to be dead. This is heavy fucking shit. I love him so deeply and our friendship goes back to teenage years. I can only help him as much as I can. This bothers me greatly. Today I thought when I was authorized to discuss his account on his behalf (no easy task) with PayPal that we were making progress. Then to have that door shut in our face is troubling. How much worse can this guys life get? I guess we're going to fine out.
Gravity • John Mayer
Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down
Oh I'll never know what makes this man
With all the love that his heart can stand
Dream of ways to throw it all away
Oh, gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down
Oh twice as much ain't twice as good
And can't sustain like one half could
It's wanting more
That's gonna send me to my knees
Oh twice as much ain't twice as good
And can't sustain like one half could
It's wanting more
That's gonna send me to my knees
Oh gravity, stay the hell away from me
Oh gravity has taken better men than me (how can that be?)
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
C'mon keep me where the light is
C'mon keep me where the light is
C'mon keep me where keep me where the light is (oh, oh)
And gravity wants to bring me down
Oh I'll never know what makes this man
With all the love that his heart can stand
Dream of ways to throw it all away
Oh, gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down
Oh twice as much ain't twice as good
And can't sustain like one half could
It's wanting more
That's gonna send me to my knees
Oh twice as much ain't twice as good
And can't sustain like one half could
It's wanting more
That's gonna send me to my knees
Oh gravity, stay the hell away from me
Oh gravity has taken better men than me (how can that be?)
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
C'mon keep me where the light is
C'mon keep me where the light is
C'mon keep me where keep me where the light is (oh, oh)
Struggling
My therapist has recommended that journaling may help my frame of mind. In a nut shell, one of my oldest and dearest friends was diagnosed with early on-set Alzheimer's disease. He's 57 years old and has twin three year olds. We've been talking almost daily for an hour a day for the last 6 months. At times I feel a crushing sense of sadness, other times I feel depressed, angry and confused. I love my pal, really a soul brother and someone who I shared a house with for a couple years back in 1986, & 1987.
In most likelihood there is no happy ending to this story. His father died of Alzheimer's by the time he was 62 years old. I don't know what to say or how to feel or what to do. In our daily talks, he has good days and bad days. Some days his brain seems to be working ok, other days things are way off. His long term memory seems fairly intact, while his short term memory is shot. We spend a great deal of time on tasks that most of us take for granted. Again and again I've helped him navigate his iPhone. How to check a voicemail message, or a text or email. How to use Waze. . . . again.
My heart is breaking, but there is no limit to my love. Am I really going to have to watch my friend slowly slip away and die? I wish there was something I could do. He lives almost 400 miles away from me, so there is only so much I can help him with on the phone. I've visited him twice in the last 6 months.
What do I think? How do I feel. I feel like if I ever didn't know who my wife was, or who I was, that would be the place I want get off the bus. Recently I tried to have a very grown up discussion with him about assisted suicide. Better to have this conversation with him while he can still understand it. . . I thought. I got no real indication as to whether it was making any sense to him at all, what I was saying.
I feel things deeply, deeper than most people as my father has reminded me over the decades. It is true. I am unashamed to love this man as much as I do, or anyone for that matter. My emotions are what they are, and the situation clearly sucks. I've dealt with death in my life, more than my fair share, as well as two divorces and the estrangement of my 4 kids. I am no stranger to pain and anger. This is so sad, to watch a disease begin to eat my friends' brain like a zombi.
I'm struggling, I have to accept the fact that I will watch my dear friend slowly loose his mind and die. I don't know how to do that. The feelings are so strong and the tears, so many. I will contine to try and help him as much as I can, for as long as I can.

In most likelihood there is no happy ending to this story. His father died of Alzheimer's by the time he was 62 years old. I don't know what to say or how to feel or what to do. In our daily talks, he has good days and bad days. Some days his brain seems to be working ok, other days things are way off. His long term memory seems fairly intact, while his short term memory is shot. We spend a great deal of time on tasks that most of us take for granted. Again and again I've helped him navigate his iPhone. How to check a voicemail message, or a text or email. How to use Waze. . . . again.
My heart is breaking, but there is no limit to my love. Am I really going to have to watch my friend slowly slip away and die? I wish there was something I could do. He lives almost 400 miles away from me, so there is only so much I can help him with on the phone. I've visited him twice in the last 6 months.
What do I think? How do I feel. I feel like if I ever didn't know who my wife was, or who I was, that would be the place I want get off the bus. Recently I tried to have a very grown up discussion with him about assisted suicide. Better to have this conversation with him while he can still understand it. . . I thought. I got no real indication as to whether it was making any sense to him at all, what I was saying.
I feel things deeply, deeper than most people as my father has reminded me over the decades. It is true. I am unashamed to love this man as much as I do, or anyone for that matter. My emotions are what they are, and the situation clearly sucks. I've dealt with death in my life, more than my fair share, as well as two divorces and the estrangement of my 4 kids. I am no stranger to pain and anger. This is so sad, to watch a disease begin to eat my friends' brain like a zombi.
I'm struggling, I have to accept the fact that I will watch my dear friend slowly loose his mind and die. I don't know how to do that. The feelings are so strong and the tears, so many. I will contine to try and help him as much as I can, for as long as I can.

Monday, November 18, 2019
Hennessy Black Gig
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Photo Credit: Bill Kennedy |
Saturday, November 16, 2019
Friday, January 11, 2019
RIP Bill Pryor

I fist met Bill Pryor when I was a kid. He had Bill's Magic Corner in a Pharmacy in Kenwood. He was the kindest of men and had more humanity than most people. He loved being a teacher, magician, highschool basketball referee, inventor and lover of math and mathamagic.
At one point he was in business with Ken Klosterman and Allen Kracknell with their own magic shop called Venture III. He ended up finding a home at Haines House of Cards, where I grew up and started working at as a 12 year old.
My memories of Bill are rich and deep. He meant a lot to me and it saddened me that I was unable to reach him at the end and say goodbye. He will always have a special place in my heart for the kindness, generosity and friendship that he showed me for 4 decades. You will be missed, loved, but never forgotton. Heck of a guy.
Friday, December 28, 2018
Monday, May 21, 2018
Wednesday, January 17, 2018
Living a magical life
I know I've said this before, but it's true. My life is a neverending magic convention, and has been that way for decades. I wish I could report on every cool thing I see and do but that would take forever.
Over the last couple of weeks I seen some fantastic acts at the club as well as a few sessions at my house and a couple of meetings like the Elders Meeting I went to last night. One recent evening I saw three acts in the Close-Up Gallery. Cocktail Hour was David Stryker, he did nice work; but what impressed me the most was his pacing. Slow and deliberate, wise beyond his years he never seemed rushed and knew how to wait for the effects to sink in. Also the same night was Richard Turner. Holy shit! I've seen his act many times through the years, but I really feel that he just gets better and better. His card work is exceptional, original, and I think it's safe to say that he does stuff with a deck of cards that noone else could do. Finally, in late close-up was Paul Gertner-Gaertner. I first saw Paul work way back in the day. It must have been 1981, I was 15. It was my first IBM National Convention in Evansville, IN if my memory serves correctly. There was an unexpected flash flood and we got stuck in the theater. Paul was there, sat crossed legged on the floor and wowed everyone who watched. Was perhaps the first time I had ever seen some great poker demonstrations. So much in entertainment is about what is fresh and new. It's a youth driven industry. Watching both Paul & Richard Turner was an inspiration. Two middle aged magicians doing some of the best work of their lives. Watching Paul perform his unique Cups and Balls routine is always the highlight for me, but even a routine like Unshuffled has become a classic. Top of his game. He's in the process of putting a national lecture tour together, please have your club look into this as he is not to be missed. As I write this, I realize that I had seen him previous to the Evensville Convention. He lectured in Cincinnati at Haines House of Cards where I was working. it must have been '78 or '79. What I learned that day I was able to perfect at an amusement park gig I did at Kings Island for a couple of summers. It was a treat to see him work these same techniques all these years later. Just beautiful.
I shot a couple acts for the video commitee last week a 21 year old Mentalist named Mark Gibson, we shot in the Peller Theater, He wanted some video for submission for a TV show. He did a great effect with a balloon and had a great spin on a book test. Really enjoyed his unique personality and fresh effects. Later in the week I shot Gwenaëlle Ardault in the Palace of Mystery. It's rare that I watch a show three times in a row, but shooting all three of Gwenaëlle's (a beautiful French magician) performances provided me this opportunity to study a well balanced show. The MC opener was Larry Wilson, a tried , true and very funny act, followed by James Dimmare another man whose career I've followed for decades. I miss Dimmare's old bird act (one of the best in the biz), but he certainly shines with everything that he does, love his use of music, dance and movement. I had never seen or heard of Gwenaëlle, but was equally impressed by her talent and creativity. IF you have not heard of some of the names I've talked about you would be wise to check them out on YouTube!
Last night I went to an Elders Meeting. Mostly mentalists but a powerhouse group of heavy thinkers. Pete McCabe gave a short talk about his new book Scripting Magic II. He had both 1 &2 for sale after the meeting. We met at a BBQ joint and enjoyed tri tip and chicken with all the fixen's. Robert J Gould enlightened us as to new techniques on how to transmit thoughts from one person to another and have a spectator hear a voice INSIDE HER HEAD! He used two waitresses. One sent the other a thought. When she received the thought/voice in her own head her eyes immediately began tracking like a ferret on crack. UNBELIVABLE. I went there with my pal Allen Gittelson, an up and coming LA Based mentalist. He's been working very hard on his actand is a name to keep an eye out for. I see good things for him in the near future.
I could ramble on endlessly, but I don't want to make you jealous, and I have to get ready to head to the club to shoot the Eugene Burger Celebration of Life. We're gonna miss you old friend. One of a kind and one of the heaviest thinkers on magic. . . ever.
Thursday, November 09, 2017
Thursday, November 12, 2015
Saturday, August 08, 2015
Thursday, July 30, 2015
Quote du jour
“The music is not in the notes, but in the silence between.”
― Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart
― Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart
Saturday, July 04, 2015
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
Thursday, January 15, 2015
Thursday, December 11, 2014
Michael Andrew Frank • Archive Series • The Child Within
Monday, September 22, 2014
Friday, July 04, 2014
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Visit to The Magic Castle
After work last night I headed to The Magic Castle. I was hungry and tired but excited to be invited to hang with Steve Freeman and Jeff Altman. I am just getting to know these guys. We had a terrific time talking, sharing stories and doing card tricks. Well worth the time and effort of putting on a suit and heading over after a challenging night of work.
I didn't get there until 10:30pm. Chatted with Steve and Jeff till midnight or so, then made the last rounds after they left. Chatted briefly with Howard Hamburg who was chilling in the Vernon Corner. Watched Tony Blake in the Museum wow the crowd with some mental magic. More magic talk with Jamy Ian Swiss Might try and go back tonight to see his last show in the Palace. Max Maven was in attendance. Had a nice conversation with Tony Picasso. Also at the bar was Andrew Goldenhersh and Elliot Evans. The club closed so Jamy and I enjoyed a cigar outside with some more conversation. All in all another memorable evening at The Magic Castle®!
I didn't get there until 10:30pm. Chatted with Steve and Jeff till midnight or so, then made the last rounds after they left. Chatted briefly with Howard Hamburg who was chilling in the Vernon Corner. Watched Tony Blake in the Museum wow the crowd with some mental magic. More magic talk with Jamy Ian Swiss Might try and go back tonight to see his last show in the Palace. Max Maven was in attendance. Had a nice conversation with Tony Picasso. Also at the bar was Andrew Goldenhersh and Elliot Evans. The club closed so Jamy and I enjoyed a cigar outside with some more conversation. All in all another memorable evening at The Magic Castle®!
Saturday, May 17, 2014
Recent Performance at The Magic Castle
Saturday, April 26, 2014
Tuesday, April 01, 2014
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Friday, February 21, 2014
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Castle Notes
Mind a buzz still reveling in last nights activities. I've been wanting to report a tad more on my life in magic and more specifically my frequent trips toThe Magic Castle®.
While still at work last night, I was pleasantly surprised to see Gary Plantsand his lovely wife Deborah in my audience. They were in for the Los Angeles Conference on Magic History over the previous few days. I've known Gary for 33 years. We met a The Columbus Magi-Fest Magic Conventionwhen I was but a young, teenage trouble maker. I've always been very impressed with Gary's card work. Even back in the day he was one of the most hard core in any session. His dealing work, exceptional and his trick "The Bottom Collectors" always one of my favorites. It was nice to have "Plant's" in my audience! Afterwards I asked him how my card work looked technically, (I asked him to, be blunt and honest). He said it all looked good. Made me happy.
Had a decent night at the Universal CityWalk Hollywood, for an off season Monday night. It was Veterans Day, and there was a good crowd. The Magic Castle does something unique for Veterans Day. Every performer in all the rooms are Veterans from the Armed Forces. A touching tribute to the magicians that served.
Sometimes I go to the Castle and try and see a lot of shows, other times it more about hanging with the gang and chatting the night away. Last night was more like that. I got a call from James Patton in the afternoon, saying he was going to be there in the evening. Always a treat to hang with him. We met at the Castle back in 1986. It was the first time I had worked there. I was 21 years old. Those sure were great days at the Castle. Hanging with the likes of Dai Vernon, Charlie Miller, and Larry Jennings. I was part of a small crew that consisted of Me, Daniel Sylvester (who was my roommate for 2 years back then) and Paul Nathan. Jim Patton used to call us the "Young Turks". We were young, crazy and always wore hats. Seems like a different lifetime.
I got to the Castle around 10PM and ventured down to the Library to hook up with Jim. Saw Billy Goodwin, Alfonso and Lituo down there, as well as Jim and a fellow he introduced me to, Ron Wohl. We chatted down there till Billy closed up the Library for the evening. We decided to go see Jason England in the Close-Up Gallery. Out through the Inner Circle and a quick stop to the newly revamped smoking area. Jim lit his pipe, I lit my cigar and Ron Wohl joined us for some more discussions about The Man That was Erdnase.
Jason England does beautiful work. I've known him for a while, but had never seen him perform in a formal setting. I was not disappointed. He opened with Triumph which led into a Cutting the Aces Routine followed by a Two Card Selection with a nice kicker ending. To end his performance he launched into an expansive gambling demonstration that featured all the false deals: Seconds, Bottoms, Centers & Greek Bottoms. The finale was a poker demonstration that got me hook line and sinker. Didn't see it coming.
During the show I sat next to, new member, Robb Weinstock. After the show we discussed what we saw. We retreated to the new Vernon Corner whereHoward Hamburg was holding court as usual. We continued to discuss some of the technical aspects of Jason's show. I excused myself from the table to get a cocktail and was drawn to the end seats of there bar where Tony Picasso and Michael Rangel were chatting and fiddling with cards. Tony is an interesting character. Unique in both his approach to magic as well as his outlook in general. Up until last night I didn't think he talked. While I've known him since moving back to LA, 7 years ago; he's remained a mystery to me. Michael, I've only got to know a little more recently. We had a swell talk about about these sorts of posts on Facebook. We talked about the challenge of not sugar coating opinions about the magic we see, yet, try and be honest about technical aspects of the act. Lately when I am curious about why a performer made certain choices, I've just asked. I did this last night with Jason England. Asked him why he did something the way he did. While watching the performance (not trying to be overly critical) I saw something that was curious and sort of rubbed me the wrong way. I don't like feeling critical, but we feel the way we do. It was great to just flat out ask him why he did it that way. His answer was perfect and had me not fooled me with his closer, I might have answered my own question.
Back to the Vernon corner, where Jason joined us. Howard and Jason went over some shuffle work that was over my head. Jason fried me badly and was kind enough to tip the work. Jason England does beautiful work and is one hell of a nice guy. His act was polished, professional and a credit to the art. Well done sir!
Everyone went home as the place was closing. Everyone that is, except me and Jim Patton. Brian Elerding was very polite as he gently nudged us out the door. Jim and I spent another hour hanging in the parking lot, swapping stories of the old days and card moves.
Well done Jack Goldfinger! Booking a solid week of Veteran Performers!
Till next time. . . . .
While still at work last night, I was pleasantly surprised to see Gary Plantsand his lovely wife Deborah in my audience. They were in for the Los Angeles Conference on Magic History over the previous few days. I've known Gary for 33 years. We met a The Columbus Magi-Fest Magic Conventionwhen I was but a young, teenage trouble maker. I've always been very impressed with Gary's card work. Even back in the day he was one of the most hard core in any session. His dealing work, exceptional and his trick "The Bottom Collectors" always one of my favorites. It was nice to have "Plant's" in my audience! Afterwards I asked him how my card work looked technically, (I asked him to, be blunt and honest). He said it all looked good. Made me happy.
Had a decent night at the Universal CityWalk Hollywood, for an off season Monday night. It was Veterans Day, and there was a good crowd. The Magic Castle does something unique for Veterans Day. Every performer in all the rooms are Veterans from the Armed Forces. A touching tribute to the magicians that served.
Sometimes I go to the Castle and try and see a lot of shows, other times it more about hanging with the gang and chatting the night away. Last night was more like that. I got a call from James Patton in the afternoon, saying he was going to be there in the evening. Always a treat to hang with him. We met at the Castle back in 1986. It was the first time I had worked there. I was 21 years old. Those sure were great days at the Castle. Hanging with the likes of Dai Vernon, Charlie Miller, and Larry Jennings. I was part of a small crew that consisted of Me, Daniel Sylvester (who was my roommate for 2 years back then) and Paul Nathan. Jim Patton used to call us the "Young Turks". We were young, crazy and always wore hats. Seems like a different lifetime.
I got to the Castle around 10PM and ventured down to the Library to hook up with Jim. Saw Billy Goodwin, Alfonso and Lituo down there, as well as Jim and a fellow he introduced me to, Ron Wohl. We chatted down there till Billy closed up the Library for the evening. We decided to go see Jason England in the Close-Up Gallery. Out through the Inner Circle and a quick stop to the newly revamped smoking area. Jim lit his pipe, I lit my cigar and Ron Wohl joined us for some more discussions about The Man That was Erdnase.
Jason England does beautiful work. I've known him for a while, but had never seen him perform in a formal setting. I was not disappointed. He opened with Triumph which led into a Cutting the Aces Routine followed by a Two Card Selection with a nice kicker ending. To end his performance he launched into an expansive gambling demonstration that featured all the false deals: Seconds, Bottoms, Centers & Greek Bottoms. The finale was a poker demonstration that got me hook line and sinker. Didn't see it coming.
During the show I sat next to, new member, Robb Weinstock. After the show we discussed what we saw. We retreated to the new Vernon Corner whereHoward Hamburg was holding court as usual. We continued to discuss some of the technical aspects of Jason's show. I excused myself from the table to get a cocktail and was drawn to the end seats of there bar where Tony Picasso and Michael Rangel were chatting and fiddling with cards. Tony is an interesting character. Unique in both his approach to magic as well as his outlook in general. Up until last night I didn't think he talked. While I've known him since moving back to LA, 7 years ago; he's remained a mystery to me. Michael, I've only got to know a little more recently. We had a swell talk about about these sorts of posts on Facebook. We talked about the challenge of not sugar coating opinions about the magic we see, yet, try and be honest about technical aspects of the act. Lately when I am curious about why a performer made certain choices, I've just asked. I did this last night with Jason England. Asked him why he did something the way he did. While watching the performance (not trying to be overly critical) I saw something that was curious and sort of rubbed me the wrong way. I don't like feeling critical, but we feel the way we do. It was great to just flat out ask him why he did it that way. His answer was perfect and had me not fooled me with his closer, I might have answered my own question.
Back to the Vernon corner, where Jason joined us. Howard and Jason went over some shuffle work that was over my head. Jason fried me badly and was kind enough to tip the work. Jason England does beautiful work and is one hell of a nice guy. His act was polished, professional and a credit to the art. Well done sir!
Everyone went home as the place was closing. Everyone that is, except me and Jim Patton. Brian Elerding was very polite as he gently nudged us out the door. Jim and I spent another hour hanging in the parking lot, swapping stories of the old days and card moves.
Well done Jack Goldfinger! Booking a solid week of Veteran Performers!
Till next time. . . . .
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Jim Patton & Ron Wohl |
Saturday, November 02, 2013
Another Classic Clip • Dai Vernon & Doug Henning
Rare clip of magician Dai Vernon teaching Doug Henning the Chinese Linking Rings routine in 1972.
Dai Vernon • The Professor
Magician Dai Vernon (1894-1992) performing coin manipulation at Louis Tannen's Magic Jubilee in 1960.
Friday, November 01, 2013
Quote du jour
"Full many a flower is born to blush unseen,
And waste its sweetness on the desert air."
- Thomas Gray
Neil Young • Cellar Door
These archive series recordings are just great! Really crisp early Niel.
Criss Angel
Been trying to watch some Criss Angel on TV. It's easy to take pot shots at something you don't like. It's more interesting to look at some other factors like what makes this guy so popular. He obviously has a large following and works his ass off to perpetuate his brand. So what is it? Do his fans actually accept that what they are seeing is real? Or is it with a wink and a grin and hey it's a TV show? I'm a big fan of Success. Criss Angel is a successful working magician in a tough and often heartless industry. He's climbed the ladder and now laughing his ass off to all of us who might call him a chump. He ain't no chump, he's a magician that works more than most of us combined. Good for him.
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Halloween at the Magic Castle
Went to the Magic Castle Monday night. Lucy Lawrence was all dolled up in Halloween attire and working the door. "Open says me" and the evening was underway. I arrived after 10PM and was eager to start the night. Cocktails and magic, been a favorite of mine for years.
Stopped down to the WC Fields Bar to see Jon Armstrong work. Although I know and like Jon, to be honest, I haven't seen him in action all that much. It was a pleasure to watch him work the bar. While I enjoyed his impeccable card magic (any card at any location, some sort of telephone # Triumph, and of course his now wildly popular "Little Plunger"), other factors seemed even more relevant. I must say that his calm demeanor, flawless execution and dry wit had me in stitches. A couple of other noteworthy observations were a running gag with the bartenders tip bucket, BRILLIANT and his audience management of filling seats when people had to leave. Easy to see why he is Chairman of the Board of Trustees. He knows Magic and the Castle. Also gets bonus points for tilting the performing surface towards the audience using a couple of rocks glasses.
Next, was another stiff drink and the Palace of Mystery show starring Rob Zabrecky & Conjure. Chatted briefly (before the show) with Brian Elerdingwho was sporting a great costume and some provocative byplay with a cane. The show started and Rob was introduced. Rob, simply put, is in a class by himself. I can't compare him to anyone. He opened with a bit of paper cutting, his version of Diminishing Cards (a trick I normally dislike), had me in stitches. He's quite the dancer! I've been lucky enough to see Rob perform quite a few times since moving back to LA in 2006. It's no wonder he gets the positive attention and reaction that he does. Very interesting guy with a unique vision. Conjure did a wonderful, high energy, new vaudeville style act. Comprised of Mike Huling and his beautiful wife Cole. Pleased to see illusions (2 weeks in a row on the Palace Stage), Nifty version of the Shadow Box to introduce her. Mike did a wonderful hat juggling routine to music as well as a rope tie routine. Overall a strong and balanced show! I wish I could provide more details but, as it was getting late and the libations were taking effect. Details seemed less important than having a great time. Very funny bit with Stephen Levine and his unwanted ring tone from his phone. Hey, it happens. . . but rarely does it turn into comedy gold! Well played Rob!
A final drink and caught one more act. Paul Vigil working in the Close-Up Gallery. Although I don't know him that well, I've seen him perform a couple of times and like where he is coming from. I would describe him as slow and deliberate. From his Ace Assembly to his Matrix, clarity is what I came away with. "He's not happy till we're happy. . . . could it be anymore fair?".
Another great Monday night at The Magic Castle! Been lucky, last two Monday nights. Was able to see 3 acts! Thinking about going back tonight for a Members Only night. Try and catch the acts I missed.
Stopped down to the WC Fields Bar to see Jon Armstrong work. Although I know and like Jon, to be honest, I haven't seen him in action all that much. It was a pleasure to watch him work the bar. While I enjoyed his impeccable card magic (any card at any location, some sort of telephone # Triumph, and of course his now wildly popular "Little Plunger"), other factors seemed even more relevant. I must say that his calm demeanor, flawless execution and dry wit had me in stitches. A couple of other noteworthy observations were a running gag with the bartenders tip bucket, BRILLIANT and his audience management of filling seats when people had to leave. Easy to see why he is Chairman of the Board of Trustees. He knows Magic and the Castle. Also gets bonus points for tilting the performing surface towards the audience using a couple of rocks glasses.
Next, was another stiff drink and the Palace of Mystery show starring Rob Zabrecky & Conjure. Chatted briefly (before the show) with Brian Elerdingwho was sporting a great costume and some provocative byplay with a cane. The show started and Rob was introduced. Rob, simply put, is in a class by himself. I can't compare him to anyone. He opened with a bit of paper cutting, his version of Diminishing Cards (a trick I normally dislike), had me in stitches. He's quite the dancer! I've been lucky enough to see Rob perform quite a few times since moving back to LA in 2006. It's no wonder he gets the positive attention and reaction that he does. Very interesting guy with a unique vision. Conjure did a wonderful, high energy, new vaudeville style act. Comprised of Mike Huling and his beautiful wife Cole. Pleased to see illusions (2 weeks in a row on the Palace Stage), Nifty version of the Shadow Box to introduce her. Mike did a wonderful hat juggling routine to music as well as a rope tie routine. Overall a strong and balanced show! I wish I could provide more details but, as it was getting late and the libations were taking effect. Details seemed less important than having a great time. Very funny bit with Stephen Levine and his unwanted ring tone from his phone. Hey, it happens. . . but rarely does it turn into comedy gold! Well played Rob!
A final drink and caught one more act. Paul Vigil working in the Close-Up Gallery. Although I don't know him that well, I've seen him perform a couple of times and like where he is coming from. I would describe him as slow and deliberate. From his Ace Assembly to his Matrix, clarity is what I came away with. "He's not happy till we're happy. . . . could it be anymore fair?".
Another great Monday night at The Magic Castle! Been lucky, last two Monday nights. Was able to see 3 acts! Thinking about going back tonight for a Members Only night. Try and catch the acts I missed.
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Friday, October 25, 2013
An open letter to Brett Wolf in Heaven
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January 31, 2009 |
What do you say when you loose someone that you loved. Someone that was a big part of your life once upon a time? Brett passed away July 20, 2013 at the age of 40 as a result of complications during a liver transplant. He was my friend, a great guy and a wonderful magician.
It's taken me a couple of months to even be able to write this post. I can't convey the impact of emotion upon getting this sad news. He was a man among men, a big guy with an even bigger heart and smile.
We met years ago in Cincinnati, Ohio where we both are from. I talked to him a month before he died. While I was aware that he had health issues, he never told me that he was on a transplant list or that things were that serious. Back in the day I must have seemed like somthing to my magic friends that were coming up. I had lived and performed in NYC, Boston, New Orleans, Los Angeles and Tokyo before the age of 21. By the time I was settling down with a wife and kid (I was 24), I had this little posse of magicians that sessioned in the 3 room attic in my mothers house in Hyde Park. Among the gang was Brett Wolf, Homer Liwag and Chris Korn. Oh the times we had. The tricks, the techniques, the theory. These were GREAT and memorable days for us all.
When I met Brett, he was still in High School. He was a big, good looking kid who wouldn't blink an eye as he lied about his age. . . convincingly. We had great times as the sessions moved from my mom's house to a giant 4,500 sq. ft. loft I was renting in a downtown slum. Then to a brownstone in Covington, then to a place in Norwood.
I created a job at an upscale, rock n roll, toy store for adults in a downtown mall. My job was to create a magic department. I did just that and brought Brett in as my right hand man. He was an invaluable partner in helping create a system that would later give me the confidence to open my own magic shop.
About this time my first marriage fell apart. I had custody of my 2 year old son Buster, who Brett loved and was so good with. Brett was there for me as my life fell apart. I'll never forget the support he provided. He was a good friend when I needed one. I used to take him on the road with me, traveling from town to town doing one-nighters, drinking wiskey and staying in shitty hotels. Sometimes I would give him a little slot in my show to do the floating cigarette. People always FLIPPED OUT!
I am missing you my old friend. My heart breaks for your family and friends who feel the emptiness as I do. We will all get through this and remember what a fine, generous, happy individual you were. Come and visit me in my dreams, I have a new trick to show you.
I can't fight the tears, so I won't. You meant so much to us all and we can't believe your gone. I will always love you and what you brought to my life.
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Friday, June 07, 2013
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Quote du jour
I know a man who gave up smoking, drinking, sex, and rich food. He was healthy right up to the time he killed himself.
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Monday, February 11, 2013
Friday, February 01, 2013
The Hollow Men by T S Eliot
I
We are the hollow men
We are the stuffed men
Leaning together
Headpiece filled with straw. Alas!
Our dried voices, when
We whisper together
Are quiet and meaningless
As wind in dry grass
Or rats' feet over broken glass
In our dry cellar
Shape without form, shade without colour,
Paralysed force, gesture without motion;
Those who have crossed
With direct eyes, to death's other Kingdom
Remember us-if at all-not as lost
Violent souls, but only
As the hollow men
The stuffed men.
II
Eyes I dare not meet in dreams
In death's dream kingdom
These do not appear:
There, the eyes are
Sunlight on a broken column
There, is a tree swinging
And voices are
In the wind's singing
More distant and more solemn
Than a fading star.
Let me be no nearer
In death's dream kingdom
Let me also wear
Such deliberate disguises
Rat's coat, crowskin, crossed staves
In a field
Behaving as the wind behaves
No nearer-
Not that final meeting
In the twilight kingdom
III
This is the dead land
This is cactus land
Here the stone images
Are raised, here they receive
The supplication of a dead man's hand
Under the twinkle of a fading star.
Is it like this
In death's other kingdom
Waking alone
At the hour when we are
Trembling with tenderness
Lips that would kiss
Form prayers to broken stone.
IV
The eyes are not here
There are no eyes here
In this valley of dying stars
In this hollow valley
This broken jaw of our lost kingdoms
In this last of meeting places
We grope together
And avoid speech
Gathered on this beach of the tumid river
Sightless, unless
The eyes reappear
As the perpetual star
Multifoliate rose
Of death's twilight kingdom
The hope only
Of empty men.
V
Here we go round the prickly pear
Prickly pear prickly pear
Here we go round the prickly pear
At five o'clock in the morning.
Between the idea
And the reality
Between the motion
And the act
Falls the Shadow
For Thine is the Kingdom
Between the conception
And the creation
Between the emotion
And the response
Falls the Shadow
Life is very long
Between the desire
And the spasm
Between the potency
And the existence
Between the essence
And the descent
Falls the Shadow
For Thine is the Kingdom
For Thine is
Life is
For Thine is the
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper
.
We are the hollow men
We are the stuffed men
Leaning together
Headpiece filled with straw. Alas!
Our dried voices, when
We whisper together
Are quiet and meaningless
As wind in dry grass
Or rats' feet over broken glass
In our dry cellar
Shape without form, shade without colour,
Paralysed force, gesture without motion;
Those who have crossed
With direct eyes, to death's other Kingdom
Remember us-if at all-not as lost
Violent souls, but only
As the hollow men
The stuffed men.
II
Eyes I dare not meet in dreams
In death's dream kingdom
These do not appear:
There, the eyes are
Sunlight on a broken column
There, is a tree swinging
And voices are
In the wind's singing
More distant and more solemn
Than a fading star.
Let me be no nearer
In death's dream kingdom
Let me also wear
Such deliberate disguises
Rat's coat, crowskin, crossed staves
In a field
Behaving as the wind behaves
No nearer-
Not that final meeting
In the twilight kingdom
III
This is the dead land
This is cactus land
Here the stone images
Are raised, here they receive
The supplication of a dead man's hand
Under the twinkle of a fading star.
Is it like this
In death's other kingdom
Waking alone
At the hour when we are
Trembling with tenderness
Lips that would kiss
Form prayers to broken stone.
IV
The eyes are not here
There are no eyes here
In this valley of dying stars
In this hollow valley
This broken jaw of our lost kingdoms
In this last of meeting places
We grope together
And avoid speech
Gathered on this beach of the tumid river
Sightless, unless
The eyes reappear
As the perpetual star
Multifoliate rose
Of death's twilight kingdom
The hope only
Of empty men.
V
Here we go round the prickly pear
Prickly pear prickly pear
Here we go round the prickly pear
At five o'clock in the morning.
Between the idea
And the reality
Between the motion
And the act
Falls the Shadow
For Thine is the Kingdom
Between the conception
And the creation
Between the emotion
And the response
Falls the Shadow
Life is very long
Between the desire
And the spasm
Between the potency
And the existence
Between the essence
And the descent
Falls the Shadow
For Thine is the Kingdom
For Thine is
Life is
For Thine is the
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper
.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Importance of Sessioning
Some of my fondest memories, in my life in magic, have been sessioning with other magicians. As a 14 year old kid in Cincinnati, every Saturday morning, my pal Shawn Greer would pick me up in his shitty, little red Chevette. We would make the trek across town to our mentor, Larry Pringle’s house. There we would meet with Larry, Ken Bierly, Roscoe Harrison and sometimes Paul Swinford would come over. This went on for years and created a strong foundation for my study in magic.
What do you do at a session? Perform, learn, grow and feel the power of entertainment! The best sessions have people with a variety of skill levels. This is nice because if you have the knowledge and skill you can help others. If you are a beginner you have the best opportunity to get fooled badly AND a great opportunity to get pointers on how to do it better. . . or just right.
The important thing is that everybody participate. Sitting around a table is best. Close-up pads, optional. I usually feel that close-up pads are for pussies. Derek Dingle taught me at an early age, that you should be able to do your best work on a wet bar. No one really wants to perform on a wet bar, but his point is good. A close-up pad doesn’t reflect real world performing conditions when you’re out and about. Everyone should participate. I am particularly fond of the Round Robin. A must at any session. A Round Robin is where you go around the table and everyone does a trick. This is important for growth. Of course no one is forced to do anything they don’t want to, but the session is about going out of your comfort zone for the purpose of bettering your magic.
Sometimes you just want to see how a trick looks and feels before showing to the public. Sometimes you want a critical evaluation of what you are doing. Both are extremely helpful. In between group sessions Shawn and I would session several nights a week till the wee hours using harsh and slurred phrases like, “Flash! or FLASH LIKE HELL!”. We were unrelenting and learned how not to flash.
Sometimes you just want to see how a trick looks and feels before showing to the public. Sometimes you want a critical evaluation of what you are doing. Both are extremely helpful. In between group sessions Shawn and I would session several nights a week till the wee hours using harsh and slurred phrases like, “Flash! or FLASH LIKE HELL!”. We were unrelenting and learned how not to flash.
It is not uncommon for new magicians to focus completely on what they are doing technically. They stare at their hands, mumble their words and forget who they are performing for. I remember my dad asking me as an 11 year old, “who are you doing the trick for. . . me or you?”. Good lesson to learn early on. The magic session is a terrific place to come out of your shell. There is safety, concern and love of the art at a session.
When I was a kid,I took magic lessons from guy named Paul Rolling who worked at Haines House of Cards in Norwood, Ohio. I must have been 10 or eleven years old. My folks had just divorced and my mom wasn’t really dealing with her grief and anger so well. As for us four kids, we all just did the best we could. I found a home at the magic shop and became a fixture. Cincinnati had a great magic scene, and I felt like Alice in Wonderland. At some point the sessions left Larry’s basement and we met Saturday afternoons on the stage or in the back room of Haines House of Cards.

There I would hear of the epic “back room” sessions across the country both current and past. Names like Dia Vernon, Ed Marlo, T. Nelson Downs & Malini. What round table in Chicago? Magic Castle! What’s that? As a youngster I romanticized what it might be like to hang out with Dai Vernon at the Magic Castle. A decade later that dream would come true when I moved to LA. I was 21 years old and lived with Sylvester the Jester. It was a non stop magic session for 2 years.
I owned magic shops for a dozen years and couldn’t begin to count the number of sessions that were held in the back rooms. A right of passage, entrance to a welcoming world of like mined people. What could be better? During my shop years, you never knew who was going to come in. People like Sal Piacente, or David Ben, Stephen Minch, Robert Giobbi, Johnathan Pendragon, Mike Ammar, Lee Asher, Aaron Fisher and a ton of people you never heard of, but who were great! It was common to see a sign on my shop door that said, “In the back room, ring the bell”. I had installed a wireless doorbell to inform me that customers wanted to enter. When my last shop, Seattle Magic closed, at the request of Tim Flynn & Steve Ameden we continued the sessions at my Alki Beach Magic Studio. For the next two years, every Tuesday night (I don’t think we missed one) I hosted a session that grew into an amazing weekly event. Friendships formed, tricks learned and polished, cocktails and beers consumed, cigars and cigarettes smoked and cards shuffled.


Magic sessions are only as good as the people there. Are there those who want to share their knowledge? Anyone looking to learn a new trick, sleight or subtlety? Who just wants to have fun and talk magic? I DO!
Now it’s your turn. Pick up the phone call a couple of your magicians friends. Set up a time to meet at your house or a coffee shop, or a bar. Get your cards and coins, color changing knives and packet tricks in your close-up case and get it going! Bring something to take notes or a video camera. Keep track of what you’re learning and do it again next week and log progress. It’s not about blowing smoke up your ass, it’s about getting better at what you love. Make it as good as it can be. . . then make it better!
Friday, January 25, 2013
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Touch
There is magic in everday life,
you just have to find it
hidden behind a couch or at the bottom of a closet
magic is where it shouldn't be
or couldn't be
or mabey isn't
did it disappear?
will it come back?
who knows what it means?
why or how it happens?
But it does
With the sun rising daily
the birds will sing
and children will smile
There is this gift called mystery
and the giver of this gift the magician
you just have to find it
hidden behind a couch or at the bottom of a closet
magic is where it shouldn't be
or couldn't be
or mabey isn't
did it disappear?
will it come back?
who knows what it means?
why or how it happens?
But it does
With the sun rising daily
the birds will sing
and children will smile
There is this gift called mystery
and the giver of this gift the magician
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
Happy New Year!!!!
2012 is done and 2013 has just begun. What a year of ups and downs, highs and lows, ins and outs.
The most significant event of the year was marrying Polly on 12/21/2012, "The Armageddon Wedding!" We were married on Sunset Beach on the North Shore of Oahu, Hawaii. It was a small intimate affair with only a few friends in attendance. The week we spent on the island was just great! I had never been there, Polly had lived there for a couple of years 15 years ago.
I met Polly when we were both 15 years old attending the School For The Creative & Performing Arts back in Cincinnati, Ohio. Who would have guessed that she would become my third wife. Seems like a lifetime or two ago. I never figured I would marry again after such a horrible divorce last time, but here I am today with a new outlook on life, love in my heart and a smile on my face. Time does heal all wounds.
So, we move forward into the unknown. Opening up our hearts and our lives to see what the future brings.
Here's a little 1 minute wedding video teaser till I finish editing a longer version. Enjoy!
Polly and I are committed to leading healthier lives, modifying our diets and exercising more. We spent an hour today doing HOT yoga. It was great to sweat puddles and stretch our muscles. We're looking to do it again every day this week. Already sore from our workout and my night at work.
I rocked it hard this evening and put together the remaining funds for last months child support payment. All in all a GREAT start to the year!
Tomorrow night I will attend the 50th Anniversary Celebration event at the Magic Castle. Funny to think that I've been working there on and off for the last 25 years. Oy.
I wish you all a happy and prosperous New Year and hope that all of your dreams come true!
The most significant event of the year was marrying Polly on 12/21/2012, "The Armageddon Wedding!" We were married on Sunset Beach on the North Shore of Oahu, Hawaii. It was a small intimate affair with only a few friends in attendance. The week we spent on the island was just great! I had never been there, Polly had lived there for a couple of years 15 years ago.
I met Polly when we were both 15 years old attending the School For The Creative & Performing Arts back in Cincinnati, Ohio. Who would have guessed that she would become my third wife. Seems like a lifetime or two ago. I never figured I would marry again after such a horrible divorce last time, but here I am today with a new outlook on life, love in my heart and a smile on my face. Time does heal all wounds.
So, we move forward into the unknown. Opening up our hearts and our lives to see what the future brings.
Here's a little 1 minute wedding video teaser till I finish editing a longer version. Enjoy!
Polly and I are committed to leading healthier lives, modifying our diets and exercising more. We spent an hour today doing HOT yoga. It was great to sweat puddles and stretch our muscles. We're looking to do it again every day this week. Already sore from our workout and my night at work.
I rocked it hard this evening and put together the remaining funds for last months child support payment. All in all a GREAT start to the year!
Tomorrow night I will attend the 50th Anniversary Celebration event at the Magic Castle. Funny to think that I've been working there on and off for the last 25 years. Oy.
I wish you all a happy and prosperous New Year and hope that all of your dreams come true!
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
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